Midge’s Mumblings on Awakened Hearts
How are we showing up during this Pandemic and what does it say about us? The new Avatar Craze had me wondering…..
Fear debilitates. Information is power. The divisiveness in this country today has created a different kind of world. Now, when we are facing a difficult time with the threat of yet another health risk; who do we trust? How do I protect myself and my family? I know, I know, wash my hands. I WANT MORE! I want to support my immune system from the inside out. That is where my essential oils have become my defense against all defenses.
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Midge’s Mumbings on Awakened Hearts
I have stuff. Stuff from my past, stuff business, stuff that needs to be done at home, stuff with relationships; but hey, don’t we all?
Our stuff can shape who we are, who we will become, and what we attract into our lives. How often do you catch yourself on auto-pilot? Just going through the motions and not paying attention to the pain in your life? I spent years doing that. Shoving down the pain, avoiding it, rising above it, and starting over again and again when I really didn’t want to start over; again!
Pema Chödron, in her book Pain and Suffering; Life Wisdom talks about sitting with the suffering. I can tell you, that is uncomfortable. Allowing yourself to be present and feel all the feelings that come up when you confront issues in your life and life events that have occurred. Especially if I have to confront a pain that was caused by myself! It hurts, it is embarrassing, and the most difficult part is to break the pattern of avoiding.
Moving past a life event that leaves the feeling of anger and pain is very difficult. Emotional growth is not for the faint of heart.
As I live and move and breathe into a higher consciousness, I have to sit with my past, my choices, my not so pretty moments and really evaluate what I could have changed. It is extremely humbling. I believe we are all here to serve a higher purpose than just getting through this life. My goal is to keep transforming my pain and claim my authentic power so I can then be the light for others who are ready.
Last week I talked about my decision to be confirmed as an Episcopalian. This week I wanted to give you the up-date. I DID IT! Was it easy? Absolutely not.
Anytime we do something meaningful we are faced with fears of doing something new, changing something up, and doubts about our readiness. I have been taking the Episcopal 101 class to get a deeper understanding of the formation of the church and their beliefs. I was surprised to learn that I am aligned with their beliefs. I was raised to believe that I wouldn’t be aligned with other faiths. I also learned how be more intentional about my worship that opened up my Spirituality to a new level.
Even with all my meetings with Father Joe, attending a weekly healing service to work through fears, and all the education and worship time on Sunday mornings, all my old fears came up. The Wednesday before confirmation I was almost convinced I might back out. I spent time in the sanctuary of the Parish before going to the healing service in the chapel that Wednesday. I needed to figure out if I was at peace with my decision to be confirmed. I knelt in the dark with staring at the lit up cross of Christ on his throne. I was seeking confirmation that I was making the right decision and I humbly asked that I would have a knowing in my soul.
In the very next moment, I had the urge to look up the words to the song; It is Well with My Soul. I found the lyrics on my phone, and as I was kneeling I sang the hymn that I love so much. This was the same hymn that was being sung at the Metropolitan Community Church when I was struggling to own my homosexuality. As I sang the verses of that song, a peace came over me and once again I knew that it truly is well with my soul to embrace a more structured worship into my spirituality practice.
So where is the fear coming from? When I went to healing service I again asked that I would not back out and that I would be surrounded with strength to manage the old fears by affirming the peace that I felt earlier. Are we not our worst enemies at times? As you can see by the picture, I did not back out.
The morning of confirmation I had humbly asked that when the Bishop prayed the confirmation prayer for me that I would have a visceral feeling within my Soul. I wanted this to be a whole body experience! Following the prayer, I returned to my seat and the tears started to flow. I was flooded with feelings of years of pain. I was so overwhelmed with a feeling of connection and love. The release of those tears was…. well…. Divine! Father Joe said it best when he came to give me Peace (it’s a time to greet each other in the Parish) following the confirmation.
“Welcome Home,” he said.
He was right. I have found a home to be myself, to doubt, to ask questions, to struggle, and to grow. I have found a home where my Parish family is open, supportive and they live and move and breathe the walk of Christ. I have found a home in “the Jesus Movement,” as the Rt. Rev. Bishop Anne Hodges-Copple said in her meeting with us that morning. Being fully embraced and loved is a feeling I never thought I would feel in a church. The feeling is so sweet.
Are you looking for a loving community? I know where you can find one! Feel free to reach out…..I will meet you there and welcome you home.
It is amazing how many times I have said that as long as I am above ground and still breathing, I am not done yet!
It is a gift to wake up every morning and know that I have another day to serve, another day to love, another day to bring my joy to whatever comes my way. I sometimes make plans that do not work out the way I intended. Now, I am more okay with going with the flow of synchronicities and opportunities.
It is in that flow where I feel the most inspired and am tapped into my Source. I hope that you can find a joyful purpose in every day you wake up above ground and still breathing!
Roddie; our beloved Corgi boy; the Prince of Yodel-ville… the Rod Man…. suffered a trauma. Even though he is now home, gaining weight, getting stronger, and reconnecting with the sights and sounds of home…. he is not done. He is still unpacking his trauma.
We see it on our morning walks. He is much slower due to losing muscle tone and pain due to physical issues around the site of his bite when he was attacked by a neighbor’s dog walking on his morning walk on 11-9-2019. The vet saw trauma on his x-ray that appears to be a ruptured knee sac, and believes there is ligament and tendon damage. He also has a broken fibia…… those jaws were powerful.
We see it in his interactions with other dogs and humans. Once, he was outgoing and engaged with anyone and everyone; dogs, cats and humans alike. Now, he holds back and doesn’t approach, even looking wary of those who approach him. Once he is petted, he begins to soften but the playful light in his eyes is not always present.
We see it in his interactions with his fur siblings. When he returned home he had a skin infection and the odor was pungent and his siblings didn’t recognize him due to his odor. There were weeks of avoidance between the kids and he was not in his leadership role. Over the last two weeks, he has begun to emerge back into his dominant role and is being the silent general. He is letting them know if their play is too much and he will stand up, walk in between them, and let them know to knock it off!
We see it in how he relates to the scents and sounds around him. He gets a distant look on his face and even when called to come; he doesn’t respond. There are times when he is outside that he just sits and looks off into the distance.
He shows signs of hypervigilance on his morning walk. He reacts to every sound; a dog barking inside a house or off in the distance, looking under cars, sniffing the road, looking behind him and he still reacts to the sounds of doors opening, His pace will quicken and he immediately is back into flight mode. Starring straight ahead and just trying to go. It is in those moments where we stop walking, call his name and put our hands on him and affirm his safety. We wait until his eyes return from flight mode and we turn him around to let him see there is nothing behind him and he is not being attacked.
Unpacking trauma is a lengthy and individual process. Roddie is making strides everyday as he reclaims pieces of himself that have taken a seat in the back row. Healing will happen… how much….. when….. are to be determined. What it will take is patience, love, understanding, and a push at the right time to not stay stuck in the trauma but continue to unpack it and move through it.
People experience trauma in very similar ways. The one thing that separates fur babies from people is that we have the ability to use our words and our insights to move through the trauma. Talking it out, getting a coach to validate the trauma and to provide a healing space to unpack the trauma is crucial. A coach can offer you support to confront the your fear so you can unpack the trauma and reclaim the pieces of you that are in your back row.
If you are ready to unpack a traumatic life event that is holding you back from reclaiming who you are…. I would be honored to be there for you. To schedule your free / complimentary session; click the link below.
Women have long fought for every right that we as women have today. The right to work outside of the home, to own businesses, to choose to remain single, and to vote. These rights were earned because women spoke up, were jailed, and kept speaking up until they were heard.
We are in a place in history where HER-STORY still needs to be spoken loud and clear. We deserve equal pay for an equal job, we deserve justice when assaulted, we deserve to be treated with respect when in leadership positions. These issues are still being debated and ignored.
I know that without our collective voices; your daughters will still fight these same fights. Our young girls and women deserve to stand in a better place because we paved the road for them….just as we stood in a better place because our fore sisters fought for us.
SPEAK UP! SPEAK OUT! VOTE on WOMEN’S ISSUES. THIS is OUR TIME!
Midge’s Mumblings on Awakened Hearts: I was conditioned to think and believe what I had been taught as a little one by my trusted adults. I had no other option. They fed me, didn’t flush me down the toilet, and took care of my basic needs. I didn’t know at the time who else to count on. Not all were as lucky as me; I know. Whether you grew up with loving people or not, we all are conditioned and influenced by people we look up to or people we are raised around. When we go against their beliefs or what we were taught…. there is internal conflict. If our inner core of worthiness is not fully in tact; we may experience anxiety, discomfort, or self-doubt. This is normal because by nature we are pack animals and we like it when we all agree and stick together. However, to be fully free we have to build a new relationship with our self-doubt. Instead of seeing it as a NO don’t do that, flip it! See it as an opportunity to flex you inner guidance system, trust your gut instincts, and stand in your worthiness as you chart a brave new path for you! You are the co-creator of your life and you get to stand in your truth in that moment. Will it always work out? Probably not, but that is how wisdom is born; through the lessons we learn from the choices we make.
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Midge’s Mumblings on Awakened Hearts:
It took me many many many… ok, a really long time to figure myself out. I wanted to please everyone, I wanted to get along, I didn’t want too much controversy or negativity.
There is nothing wrong with that; except I forgot to start with me! I would say I was “fine” and I didn’t speak up when it really wasn’t… fine.
Learning to :
*step into my personal power, *to find my voice, *feel my own feelings *know in my core that I approve of myself without getting that approval from others
Now, I get it. Becoming authentically me was always the journey!
I desire to listen to you story.
I desire to have a meaning conversation with you about what pain you are in.
I am interested in how you keep going.
I wonder if you have ever thought of quitting?
I wonder if you are ready to transform your pain and claim your authentic power?